Dear Diary: Remarkable

It is my six month in my uncle's house when I discover that I am stupid. I feel so down for myself, whenever I saw a person I want to hide and I want to die now!!! My uncle says that I am under psychological damage. Although I cannot understand this I listen to every word he says as he continue his teaching to me. He clarify to me that I must feel a pain inside my chest and I must have a strength to become a better person. He also told me that I must worry about our situation because we are always in great danger. I cannot accept it because I don't know what is the exact reason why we are in danger. Soon I feel the anger in my chest. I cried a lot but I promise to myself that I must become strong, palabra de honor and a have  self-confident.
Because I always accept others and I am afraid to know what's right or wrong I always  agree. Soon I found out that I must have my own decision. In this circumstances I cannot understand really the term "ANGER".Can somebody help me. I don't know that I am psychological damage. My uncle said that it is the result of physical abuse that my father did to us four. I don't know that I am having this kind of problem. In my situation I am always afraid, I don't want to be seen or neither talk to people, I don't want to interact with them, I am afraid to know other opinions about me and last and the most important is I am losing my self- esteem. This maybe the reason why I am stupid, a pigeon (a person peron who is easily fooled ) i don't want to become a pigeon and no body's perfect isn't? I f you want to advice me about my condition kindly please submit it to my yahoomail. I hope I can cure this sick of mine.